Am I not good enough?

[BloodyInnocence]

scuze ca a trebuit sa asteptati atata amar de vreme pentru aceasta continuare. dar uite ca intr-un final a venit.:)


Michelle made me sit in so many different positions and she taken so many photos that I was tired of the hole thing by the end. At one point I even ask her why do I need so many photos and she answered that many of them aren`t gone be that good and that she wanted to have from where to choose. When it finally ended I was so bored, I could have read a book.
“So, now that we finished… would you want to go somewhere to have a drink?” Michelle asks me batting her long lashes.
On any other given day, I would have gladly accepted but I wasn`t in the mood for her. Michelle was the kind of girl after celebrities and fame and I bet she would want to go somewhere where everyone sees us. Actually, I wouldn`t put it past her to call the paparazzi herself. No, I definitely don`t want the attention.
“Actually, I have plans. Maybe another time.” I say walking out of the studio, leaving her without looking back.

It is seven o`clock when I get back. I don`t want to spent the night alone, not tonight. So I get into the shower to get ready for going clubbing.
I pick a pair of dark blue jeans and a red shirt which I leave the top three buttons undone. I tie my long, silky hair as always in a low ponytail and try to arrange the bangs that always fall in my eyes. Mission impossible ten.
Big T is waiting patiently for me on the couch, in the living room. When he sees me coming, he gets up waiting to find out where we are going.
“Where are we going?” He asks seeing that I didn`t say anything.
“We`re going to a very select club and you are coming with me.” I tell him grabbing my leather coat and going out.
I called the chauffer that Scot hired to drive me around and told him to wait for me in front of the building. So when we got down stairs we don`t have to wait for the limousine to appear because it is already outside.

“Where to, Mister Kou?” the chauffer asks.
“Do you know the most exquisite club around here?”
“I`ll drive you there right now. It is an hour drive if you don`t mind.”
“Not at all. I just want to have fun.”
I look around the mini bar from the limousine and find the brand of champagne that I love so much. In moments like this I love Scot so much. He knows how to make my day. I pour into two crystal glasses and one of them give to Big T, which he at first refuses.
“Let`s start partying, my friend! This is the only way to live!”
Big T accepts the glass but takes only one small sip as if sampling it.
“Drink up, there is more from where it came.” I say encouraging him.
“Thank you for the offer, mister Kou. But I`m on duty.” He says putting the glass down.

I didn`t think one minute about the fact that he was on duty. I just wanted someone to drink with me, hoping that if I drink enough maybe I would forget about that stupid little girl. I really shouldn`t have said those things about her engagement ring, but it was as if I couldn`t stop myself from bashing it.
Why am I thinking about her again? I drink all the champagne and look for something with more alcohol in it. I find a bottle of whiskey and without second thoughts I pour in a glass with two ice cubes. And so I sink in the forgetfulness that only alcohol can give you. When I get to the club I am a bit wasted but that doesn`t stop me from having a great time.
When I get out of the limousine, all the people that are waiting in line to get in to the club start screaming my name, trying to touch me or some girls trying to kiss any part of me that they can reach. I waved and entered the club without stopping to sign autographs. Didn`t have the mood for it. I`m lucky to have Big T with me, protecting me from all those fanatics.

The first thing I see when I enter the local it is the bartender. She looks… good to eat. She is wearing only a blood red lace bra that doesn`t leave much to the imagination and a pair of black short leather pants that are so short you can`t really call them pants. They are more like boxers.
I approach the bar to see her body better. She moves with such flexibility and grace, just like a cat. She is dressed more like a stripear than a bartender, especially with those twenty three centimeter stiletto heels of hers. They are also blood red.
I sit on the stool without losing her out of my sight. I am waiting patiently for her to see me and serve me, maybe even do something more.
“What can I get you, sweetie?” I hear her asking with a slight accent.
“Hm… a dance with you if that is possible.” I tell her smiling.
“That can be arranged.”
The girl says looking me up and down, clearly liking what she sees.
“Anything else?”
“Yeah, a scotch whiskey, the best you have. I`ll be waiting for that dance.”

While I was savoring my drink, the red head was trying to satisfy the other customers. The first break she got she came to me and put a hot glass in her cleavage daring me to take it with her ice cold eyes. A red head with blue eyes, this is a first for me but when I look deeper in them I see that she has contacts. I give her a wolfish smile and bent to get the shot of tequila. She held her breath until I`d finished with the lime wedge almost a minute later.
“I think we can have that dance now.”
Without thinking about it she climbed on the table and then sat down while being careful so that I ended up between her legs. I put my hands on her waist and get her down from there to lead her on the dance floor. And there is where I lost myself.
She was like sex on heels. The red head began moving in such a way that she caught my attention and controlled my senses so that I only saw and sensed her. I would have taken her right there and there if it wasn`t for all those people around us. I put my hand on her hips while she began moving them against me, making me go crazy. I wanted her really bad so I made my move.
“How about the two of us go to my apartment and start knowing each other better?” ask whispering into her ear trying my best to keep it cool.

I longed for a women`s touch, I longed even more when her image was tormenting me.
She turns around to be face to face with me and kisses me. I feel her tongue entering my mouth and beginning to massage my tongue. I could taste the alcohol. She was wasted but that didn`t matter at all. Girls are more flexible to the craziest things when they lose their inhibitions.
The kiss lasted a couple of minutes after which she tells me to wait outside while she gets her stuff. I was surprised to see her kissing the bartender that took her place, which was a girl too. It will be a very fun night, I taught seeing the two kissing. If she couldn`t make me forget about the blond then no one could.
The red head was clinging to my arm in less than a minute so I gave a sign to Big T which was watching me like an eagle watching its prey to let him know I was ready to go. He was in front leading us through the crowded room and then through the people outside that began screaming once again.
When we were in the safety of the limousine the girl became all of a sudden quiet and serious. The smile disappeared from her face and her blue icy eyes became like steel. Big T put his hand on his gun ready to shot of she would do something suspicious. She was way to close for him to take a chance in trying to immobilize her.

But she didn`t di anything. She just talked.
“No names. No exchange of phone numbers or of addresses. No trying to keep in touch or to transform this in a relationship. I don`t do relationships. It is a one night stand. Nothing more, nothing less. So let`s live it at full and have fun. Oh and I almost forgotten. No photos or filming.”
I like her. She is just my kind of girl, but I just have to play with her a little.
“But you know… you already know my name, where I stay and with a little work you can even get my phone number without my consent, of course.” I tell her playing with her long, wavy hair.
“I guess so… well then, mister superstar Kou Seiya, I shall tell you my name and only my name so that we can be even but the rest I will keep my rules. My name`s Aries.” The red head says without looking at me, continuing with her mixing the drinks.
“You know, rules are make to be broken.” I say forcing her hand.
I was a little curious about what will she do if someone tried to break them. She didn`t say anything about the consequences if a rule was broken.

Hearing my words, she put the glasses down and turned very slow to look directly into my eyes. She had that icy glare again. I couldn`t tell what she was thinking.
“I don`t think you`ll break them. You too want just a one night stand. You aren`t interested in a relationship with a bartender, it will affect your career and your status as a Don Juan, a ladies man. But if you would, then you will meet my lover and she will not be very friendly.”
Her words left me speechless. Aries had a lover, a girl lover and she was coming with me at my apartment. Why? Why would her lover let her do whatever she wanted? How could someone accept this so easily without trying to stop this cheating?
“I need a man from time to time. I do love her but I need the hardness of a man to keep me really satisfied and as long as I don`t commit, there isn`t a problem. Now, that I put your mind at ease, shall we continue our little party?” Aries asked giving me the glass with the drink she was working on making just a second ago.

I acknowledge that she offered one to Big T too but he refused politely. She didn`t push it. We drank and kissed and drank some more all the way to my apartment. We were so into each other by the time we got in the lobby that if Big T haven`t been with us we would have made love right there and there. But he was and he guided us to my apartment and closed the door behind us.
“He didn`t seem very happy.” Aries stuttered, trying to pronounce the words right.
“He doesn`t matter. I can easily take care of him tomorrow.” I say trying to kiss her but she slips through my fingers and runs away.
She wanted to play run and hide. I could play that… for a while at least.
We ran a little, me chasing her through the rooms and then caching her in the living room. Then I take her in my arms and go in the bathroom where I throw Aries in the big bed with black sheets without any considerations. I am sure the red head is used to it.
Before I follow her in bed, first I take my shirt and jeans off, leaving my underwear on so that she will have what to take off. Aries just stays on the bed watching me like a little cat.
“So, now that you don`t have where to go. What shall I do with you?” I ask climbing in bed with her, taking her small frame into my arms.

Aries puts her hands on my chest and begins to play with my nipples giving me small chills down my spine. I begin to kiss and bite her lips and then go down her neck, her collarbone. When I get to her breasts I unhook her bra and let the two giants out of their cage for me to play with. Her nipples instantly harden when I only touch one of them with my tongue. I begin to suck and bite one of them while with the other I play with my hand. She begins to moan softly like a true little kitten that she obviously is. I didn`t think she will give me the pleasure of hearing her beg me to take her, but she does.
“Please… oh, please… I want… you… in me.” she says between breaths.
I`m a little disappointed. I was hoping that I had to work to hear those words. But all the same I shall play with her a little more before I give her what she wants. But she rises and takes off her shorts and panties. My face is right at her center and I don`t let the opportunity escape through my fingers. I put my hands on her ass, that beautiful ass that just asks for some well placed strikes, but I leave that for another time. So I put my hands on her ass an keep her still while I do my way with her body.

I feel her fingers in my hair, pulling it harder as her climax rises. I won`t let her have her release. When she is on the point of falling I let her go and she falls on the bed with her arms and legs spread wide open. I don`t let her rest because I start again playing with her breast. Aries puts her hands on my chest and makes me sit on my back while she climbs on top of me. I see it in her eyes the determination to torment me.
She takes my pants off and starts leaving a fiery path on my body. I am looking at her making her way to my erection. She puts her hands around my hard on and then, slowly begins to suck. I am a little disappointed at her way of doing things but I push that aside trying to enjoy. In a few minutes she brings me to the edge but I don`t want to finish it this way so I put my hands around her waist and lift her so that she`ll be right on top of me, then I let her gently down so that she can position herself. I enter her without any problems and Aries throws her head back saying: “Oh, my God!”. The real fun starts now.

When we both finish, we lay on the bed naked without a drop of energy left into our bodies.
Aries falls asleep right away but I remain awake looking at the ceiling trying to figure out what is missing. Why do I feel so incomplete? What do I need more than I already have?
I gave up love, all kind of love for my success. You can`t have them both, you have to choose and I made my mind, I chosen so why don`t I feel complete? Why aren`t I happy?
My eyes in their wandering fell upon the laptop. My laptop which is open. I remember clearly that I have closed it after erasing those awful words. So how come they are on the laptop defying me?
This isn`t possible. No, someone is messing with my head. Yeah, that must be it. This is just some kind of intelligent joke made by no other than my manager Scot. Oh, he`s good.
I rise and go to the desk curious to see what stood written there in the document. There could have been my words because Scot is a genius and without a problem could have found out what I wrote. But there were more than my words written there.

“Remember Seiya your wish. Remember what you had given up for her. Remember and come back, Seiya. Come back to us, to me. Remember the truth and forget this lie. She will never be yours. It wasn`t meant to be and the stars will never allow it.”
“Remember what? What truth?” I whisper looking and reading those lines again.
“The stars won`t allow it… won`t allow what?” I ask myself. I`m brought back to reality by Aries.
“Darling, come back to bed. It isn`t fun without you in it.” She says sleepy, trying to grab me by the arm, thinking about her lover.
I close the laptop and go back to bet but can`t really sleep. My mind keeps wandering back at those lines, at those words.